Sunday, January 11, 2009 5:21 PM

♥Go Far Away

Today off day and i get to rest at home with mummy. yeahs supposely today followed him outs to audition. yeahs he text me and said no need to followed him in a rude way. i cried when im on my way home just now. people in the bus, was looking at me. Tears just kept falling from my eyes. Went home and straight to my room cause i dont want anyone in the house to see im crying. and im so stupid didnt locked the door and mummy came inside without knocking it. Mummy was so worried and consoled me. thanks mummy. you're the best mum i had!
i didnt expect mummy to callled him. mummy did want to scold him but she told she cant get angry with him cause mummy loves him so much until she cant even raise her voice to him. hais. quarrelled with him and i didnt know what to do. im just tired of crying and stuff. i just felt like ending all this and not fall for guy's words anymore. but if ive think through.. its been so long since im with him and i get used to it to be with him. its up to him la. if u think u want to let me go, then said it now. i do have a life to go on toos.
I wont elaborate more. ):


Last monday, went to ite yishun for an iinterview with shairul. Thanks shai for accompany me. hoping my own boyfriend to acompany me but friend accompany me. thanks again shai. your the best friend i had (: our pictures will update soon.haha.
thought of going to SP after that but we cancelled it. hmm.
the school isnt that interesting. hehs. as normal school i see. but shit, i still want tobe in ite simei! erghs! urms. went for the interview and talk shit. yeah yeah. school start tomorrow. my first day. i felt nervous, anxious, shy and etc. haha. Lots of matreps and yes im seriously hundred percent sure that im not into MATREPS and i aready have one and one is enough for me.*EX boyfriend.
meeting natasha(new friend) at yishun inter at 730 tomorrow (:
cant wait to be in school. in a new uniform, friends and environment.

Yesterday met irah before i went to work. met her at the normal place and something in a sudden flashed in my mind. it reminds of me to him. haha. craps* just a memory left now. haha. quite upset abits. so whatever shit! irah made me smiled. i love you, babe more than anything. you always be there when i need somebody. you always give me your shoulder when i need to cry on (: and yesterday i did the closing and yes im getting better and better with it. Suddenly, firdaus appeared in my workplace with azlan and luqman. haha. so fcuking shocked. see, told u guys i guess having a boyfriend is not like having a real one. Though yesterday he off day and.. i dont want to say anymore. im just getting tired of it. so two days straight my dear friend, aous went to PS. and went home with him. thanks friend for cheering me up and shit i need to tell u guys this. Zuhayr in a sudden appeared at my wrkplace at about my lunchtime. he was waiting for me at the craft department. i was like fcuking anxious and i wanted to run away. i dont want to have any thing to do with him anymore cause im already attached. and i dont want a second conflict to happen between me and din. i already told him that im already back with my ex boyfriend. yes i agreed what you said, we do have a great time and the memories that we had for a short while.But hey though it is a short time we spent together, i apprieciate it okays. i did said to him that i really cant forget about my ex-bf. ive delete your number,zuhayr as i really wants to forget about you and everything. and it so thankful and nice to you that you listened to me by stop contacting with me since ive asked you to.
So. what i did was i brave myself up and im trying very hard to stay away from crying cause what im going to say might hurt him alot. and blablabla. and he just nod his head and walk off. i did felt sad about it. hais. ive broke someone's heart and yes its for his own sake. not mine.
i already have someone and i only needs only one to be loved okays. i hope you guys get it. i only need one person who loved me for all his heart. not fooling around with me. Bought for the stuff for my anny and it cost me a bomb sia! for just a littliest things. haiya. no choice ley. because of love, din i did all this for you. but u just cant seem apprieciate for what i have done all these while. i cant force or what okays. i can bare it by my own. two days to go yeahs. ill have a surpise for you though i know ive been cried alot for you. hais. update later when im free.ps: thanks friends for everything. i love you guys so much!