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Sunday, August 30, 2009 3:07 PM
THANKS ♥  Im fed up of how things works right now. I dont know if im at fault or im just being too stupid ? Here's a lesson for me of being too naive to believe people's words that much. and end up im being a fool. You're great at lying. And im proud of that (: And im proud that you really made my tears fall when i swore to myself that i wouldnt cry anymore. Great job. Ohh yes, i ve started working. Thursday was my first day of working. Thanks to dearest faridah whom has help me out in getting a job. I had a great time working there esp having BERUK working with me. (: PS: im trying to be strong enough with whatever ive faced it cause im all alone.
Saturday, August 29, 2009 11:26 AM
i dont feel good ♥whoever guest that im referring to. Hello, in this small world that you lived , ay isit the only post that you wrote. Come on, be in a reality okay ? Let me get it straight to you yeah , The Post that you read is not from your friend of yours yeah. Hahahaha. Get that. I get it from the internet. So i bet your dearest friend did this kind of sentence that you said " COPY AND PASTE " (: I bet you should really mind your fucking business okay. OMG ! people like you really exist. jage tepi kain org. hahhaa. So, if you have any problems with that, by means. come and find me. We meet , we talk. Dont be childish. ay, time aku secondary school macam gini. tag2 tapi tak pakai name sendiri. isnt lame ? hehs. kau dah besar kan. boleh pikir sendiri. i got one word for you. : IDIOT. PS : if you think a stupid notes that not the only one is yours , is a big fuss for it. aku boleh delete laa. macam irriating uh post aku full of bunch people like you guys. Seriously, i laugh my ass out with my mum when reading the comment that you sent. Thanks mum. hahahha. *jangan pikir dalam hidup nie, kamu sorang yang milik itu semua. I get that from the internet. So its not my fault if im copy from the internet. Learn not to accuse people cause end up you're just embarassed yourself. perangai macam budak kecik. (: ohh about saifudin that you talk about. Let me get this, we are deeply into love with each other. So in our story , thers's no i leave him and there's no he leave me. So, i wanna tell you. better shut ur fucking mouth if you dont know anything about my love story okay, bitch. Just look at yourself and get a mirror for it and reflects yourself before saying people's life. Cause there's no such thing as perfect alright. Thanks. If there's anything that you arent satisfied with , likewise , come and find me. (; To my readers : ill post a proper one when im free.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 6:55 PM
Things are just putting us away. ♥I dont know why im just scared of losing out. I dont know why im just being too naive. I dont know why im just easily fall in trap. I dont know why im scared of losing my loved ones. I dont know why i have to be in this kind of situation. I dont know why things just couldnt be great for me. I dont know why i have this kind of feelings that really bothering me. I hate to be in this kind of situation. ):
Thursday, August 20, 2009 6:43 PM
BOO ♥ didnt attend to school due to im sick. Having flu in a sudden. Brother got sick too. Went to tampines Poly to have my medicine and MC. didnt went alone this time. The love did accompany me. He's the best , you see. Yeah, i know sometimes he can be abit nuisance but still he's the best of all. The love tried to make my day as good as it can be. But i tell ya, my day was damn great even though im sick and i dont have any mood at all. Thanks to him (: Met my long lost bestfriend , Zuhairah. Chat for awhile. Awww.. i just missed her. But im just speechless when seeing her state like that. She's different from what ive seen the last time. Yeah, people change sometimes. Thinking back the old days i had with her in secondary school. I just missed spending time with her , laugh , jokes and shared girls stuffs. imy, zuhairah binte mohamed. So, the love and i off to Eastpoint to have our lunch. Burger king for our lunch (: Then, we're off home. didnt attend the first period. Hey, im kind of lazy nowdays to wake up so early. heh heh. But just now, the reason was i was not feeling unwell. Thought of not going to school today but due to my MC. I have only 1 day of MC. hehs. So, get my ass out from my bed and off to get ready for school. Met the love as usual. And yes, kind of pissing off as the love was damn fucking late. I hate to wait for people , you see. But when he came down , kissing me on my forehead, awww.. i couldnt get mad on him. hees, im just loving him. So yeah, off to school. Twin , fetch me at the usual place, See, what a great friend i have. Almost when im late for class, twin will always fetch me ! ahhahaha. cute kann.. Where to get a friend like this. hahahaha (: You're the best of a kind, twin (: Ended school at 12 plus. And off to woodlands. Cousin's house. But too bad, cousin was not there. imy, cousin ! set a date soon, yeah. hees (: Around 3 plus, im off to meet the love at woodland. and we're off home. How sweet he is. Everyday, Every single day , the love wants to go school with me and go home with me too (: ily, hunn.     Labels: Hit me to the ground
Tuesday, August 18, 2009 10:34 PM
Deep down , i just felt im useless ♥Im praying hard for things to be just fine as how it used to. Labels: Beat in my heart
Sunday, August 16, 2009 2:25 PM
Thanks for being in my life ♥ People change so that they can learn to let go , things go wrong so that you can apprieciate them. When they're right , you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself , and sometimes good things fall apart , so better things can fall together. -Marlyn Monroe. Labels: it went go round and round
Saturday, August 15, 2009 2:22 PM
Fly with me ♥Things are just going too fast for me. I dont expect things to be this way and i dont expect he will come back to my life again. Yes, i know people are saying things about me and him. But hey, if i have the chance to put you guys in my place, i bet you guys would understand how i felt and why the reason it kept going the same thing. Yes, i know its easy to say but do you guys ever think its hard for me to do it ?? Forgetting everything that ive been through with him since we're in secondary school ? Hais. Maybe for the past few years , im not that serious in it. I just think of myself and not thinking of what will happen next. I have to change for the better and so are you, love. I dont want things to be happen again and again. As day goes by, we growing up and yes i wanna last with you till the end of time. Im sorry for what ive done , my attitude , the way i settle things out and etc. Im just being a narrow-minded. Im sorry. I know i couldnt be the best for you but i'll try to be the best i can do for you, hun. Believe me, whatever we've been through here, there's a reason behind it. Love, i know you still the way you are. You wouldnt change in your attitude. But hey, i will always tell to myself " One day you will change for the better " Its just that i have to bear with it. Please baby, stop playing games with me. I just had enough. Let's start this time a better one and end a better one too. All i need from you is honesty, love. Nothing else that i could ask from you. Whenever you go far away from me, i felt the emptiness in my life. I tried to loved someone else, but believe me or not , i just couldnt. They just cant seem to be you that i've want. Whenver i say ily, i mean it that ive only love you and no one else. I swear i just cant live without you love. Whatelse i can say to you, love , you make me deeply fall in love with you until i myself couldnt turn to other guy. You drive me crazy with your love, hunney. You're the best of all, baby. Love, effy.
Friday, August 14, 2009 4:56 PM
baby, you're the one ♥  Start school at 8.30 am, i guess. So yeah, didnt attend to the first lesson as i woke up late. So met the love and off to school. School was as per normal. Like what twin and i said : sekolah makin lame, makin bored sia. hehs. So off from school ard 12 plus and off meet the love. Took 969 to tampines interchange. And guess who i saw ? Shakinah. hahaha. But to the love, its was his bad day. But for me ? i feel gooooooddddddddd. (: Look at her and i said to myself , betul jugak ay nuwaira ckp pat aku that time. hahaha. i had a great time just now with the love. Every single day, being with him, i just felt secure and i felt like no one could harm me. I know things are just going too fast for me. But i know , i cant live without his love. He's just someone that i loved and i treasure him from the day i knew him. Love, i tell you what , our love stories will never just end up just like that. It will never stop and i believe out of all we had overcome for nearly three years, there is a reason behind all that, hun. i just wanna say , ily more than anything else and it will never change (:
Wednesday, August 12, 2009 7:13 PM
im in looovvveee , baby ♥  Had my photoshoot with ana. and i have to thanks ana and jaz for everything (: Waiting for the photos and stuff yeah. i had a wondeful life right now and im happy for what i have. i will not disappointed you and i'll always be there for you. Im changing right now and be a better person this time. Girl, im sorry. He's mine now. So yeah, too bad (: But hey thanks for the being such a wonderful person for him when im not around. looking forward on sunnnndddaaayyy (: huhuhu. nothing much to update. toodles. I didnt mean to hurt none of you. But in fact, you guys should know what's best in my heart. I cant lied to myself and i cant pretend at all times. Apprieciate those company that you gave tha's makes me forget everything. But hey, all that i just for the time being. I will always kept thinking of him and etc. Honestly, i dont mean to hurt you people. Im sorry. I have to go on with my life now. im happy with i have now. Goodbye.
Monday, August 10, 2009 10:02 AM
i will not disappointed you ♥Yesterday was awesooome. watching fireworks with the geeks. Met dearest shahirah first and had a long chat with her and off to meet the geeks. Our first destination was "henderson waves". I never step before on that place and the bridge was effing high. Im scared of heights, you see. hehs. Then, off to town to have our lunch. and bla bla bla.. Off to Marina to watch the fireworks. But something making me pissed. "finding syakila's friends." Thanks ay syakila for everything. hahaha. Afterall, i enjoyed it. The part twin and me were dancing , singing , shouting away when the fireworks and stupid singapore song had started. Thanks for making my day but whenever seeing the fireworks, i intend to look beside me. someone i love beside me hugging me tightly and happily we both look at the fireworks. There's alot of memories between me and him on that particular day. ): i miss being with him. But this year, we missed it. Talked on the phone with ex boyf for awhile about the football thingy. And he said he wanna ask me out and bla bla bla. You're with her yesterday, ex boyf. What's your intention by saying all those stuffs on the phone ? There's alot of question in my mind that kept bothering me. hais. But honestly, when i talked to him, i swear i wanna cry. But pretending im cheering up. whatever it is, i wish he knew.. Back to the story, off to meet syakila's friends and slack for awhile and off home. Hurried home cause i need to change and stuff. Waiting brother abby to fetch me. Surprisingly, no one in the house. Its only cousin and sis hidayah. Mummy, im sorry i lied ): So, im off to meet friends at city hall and lalalalalalalalaala. (: *winks. its was my first time, though and thanks for treat, girl ? (: Meet up again yeah, nurul ? hees. reach home at around five am plus and yes everyone asleep. hees PS: ay ayie, banyak kau pe nk msg yg kau pegy ke tak. CB ! Aku ade la tgu takpe, atleast i have fun uh, bodoh ! hees. (: didnt slept the whole day today cause im scared that i'll overslept. having photoshoot later on. Meeting ana and the others at bukit batok. Will update you guys more when im free. toodles.              Labels: trying to find the answers
Sunday, August 9, 2009 9:13 AM
bring me somewhere that is far away. ♥  Monday- Photoshoot with ana & jaz to help things out. Friday- training. Saturday- A date with my dearest baby. ( Nurul ) (: Sunday- Religious Class Having a class chalet soon. So yeah, its going to be super awesooommee (: Fasting month is around the corner. Didnt get to celebrate it with my love one. Its been two years straight celebrating it with him. hehs. Yeah, im hoping the best for him, afterall. I dont want to be called " a third person " for the second time. So, im making this difficult decision by going away from you. After what ive seen, im speechless. Remembering the night when you seating in front of my block at late night ? Are you really there or you seeing someone else at Simei, love ? hais, im speechless. seriously. i dont want to ruin your happiness with her, its better i back off. ): So yeah.. things are just great being with you. That's all i can say Goodbye, love. ): Labels: pretending im okay
Saturday, August 8, 2009 1:14 PM
im not good enough ♥i dont understand how things are going around me. Its complicated, you see. Ive been telling them for a several times but still they just cant get that in mind. What more you want me to say ? hais. im deeply upset right now. People kept accusing me for what i have not done. Please stop disturbing me and i dont want to have any rumors between you & me. Cause your ex gf's mouth are just simply sucks. I hate to be in this kind of situation. Just fuck off from my life you people. Thanks daddy for the phone. i promise i wont spoil it. You're the best dad and i felt like crying when yesterday you hold me in your arms and kissed me on my forehead. Its been such a long time i never felt your kiss and warm hug from you. Thanks daddy for everything. ilysm. Supposely, meeting nurul today but cancelled. As she needs to do some stuffs. Ohh yeah, i wana watch GI JOE laa. hahaha. Eager siaa. Biler nie nk tgk ? hmph. Ohh yes, tomorrow sunday ! huhu, its going to be a great night for me ! hehs. *winks. PS: Why are you playing with my feelings , ex boyf ? why ? Could you just simply answer it ? Im crying right now when im seeing all those stuffs. hais. Arent that fast of you ? All i can say im glad for you right now. I promise i wiil go far away from you. Goodbye.
Friday, August 7, 2009 2:19 PM
The hurting part was to see you with someone new. ♥mummy and daddy, thanks for everything. You guys are just simply a great parents to me. ily more than anything. Daddy & i are much closer right now. Im loving the way im with him right now. He isnt that bad afterall for what i've thought all these while. (: Going out later with mummy & daddy to buy me a new phone and a new line. Oooo.. im super anxious to have a new phone. Its been like ages i didnt buy a new one. huhu. So, didnt attend school today due to no lesson. Sort of slacking in school and watch this stupid kite, i guess. puas hati tak payah gy skola. hehs. Today plan was to accompany twin to her secondary school, to do some stuffs but end up cancelled due to her mum & sis was sick. Get well soon yeah. And planning at three pm , meeting ana and might be jazlynn too for my photoshoot at bukit batok. But cancel due to some problems. Postpone it to monday (: I cant barely wait on sunday. Watching fireworks with geeks and off to cousin's house, i bet. And yes im sure with it that im going to have a blast night after the fireworks! *winks. im eager to watch " GI JOE " accompany ? Yeah, we sorted things out yesterday night, and yes things became disaster yeah. i didnt expect things to be this way but i cant do anything. I dont want to be someone called a third party. Listen girl, get this okay. I did what you asked. You told me to beg and talk to your boyf not to leave you. YES , i did that. But he himself, couldnt take it with you. Im sorry, i did the best i can do. Please dont cry on the phone to me and asking me to beg again. i did all this because i pity of you. I understand how you felt. im on that situation too. Seeing someone we love, being with someone new. i have advice for you : for what you cried, waiting, searching , thinking of him but he's out there happying away. think that okay. No worries, i wont entertain him, either. I have better things to do yeah. Move on, girl. i know its hard for you but you have to give a shot. (: Im sorry if im being a narrow- minded person. I say what i have to say. i missed you too, dearest drummer. But sometimes, its not worth it for me to felt that kind of feelings to you anymore. Its pointless, you see baby. I will give a try to forget everything. Say whatever you wants about me. If only god let you know what im trying or doing right now, i bet you will just give me a wide smile that you never had before. hais. I miss you sitting beside my bed, watching me off to sleep. ): No matter what happens, ive always loved you. No one or who ever shit couldnt change that. imy, ex boyfriend Labels: i missed him badly.
Thursday, August 6, 2009 3:22 PM
im glad for you, baby. ♥  didnt attend to the first period due to my tiredness. Thanks ay for disturbing my sleep. So yeah, i have to get my ass out for school. End school early today. Slack outside for awhile and then off home. Bitch, you dont have to tell your friends about me. Its your idiot boyfriend whom came close to me and what i can say. Its not my fault, either. Likewise, i dont have time for this stupid stuffs yeah. I dont even have the urge to break you guys apart. Its your boyfriend decision that he wants to leave you. Girl, be yourself and dont try to be someone else. Thats's what your dearest boyfriend said to me (: And if you still doesnt statisfied, by all means, come and find me and we going to have alot of fun chatting to each other. Hope you reading this,bitch. (: People are just amazing, nowdays. They broke up with his/her boyfriend after they think they have found someone whom can really make them happier. But i can say to those people, they are just stupid. In the End, you will regret for whatever you made or do. Cause why ? Go for the one wholoved you with all his/her heart and not for the one you like. (: I've been thinking through in and out for the past few days. I know you're happy with life now and there's someone whom can bring you somewhere that you would forget everything. Honestly, im upset with i've seen and stuff. Buy hey, im glad that you're having a great time nowdays. I guess and i believe that it wont come back right ? I lost hope and i wont be waiting anymore. Cause i believe its just a waste of time. I better get going with my life. No used of me waiting, searching, thinking of you. I dont want to disturb your life with her. I pray for the best for you guys (: take care, goodbye, my best drummer. Labels: Im not okay.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009 6:55 PM
im praying for your happiness ♥  Ohhhhh yes ! Today's wednesday ! Im super happppyy (: Thanks faridah for accompanying me. Apprieciate it yeah, hunney. Its been a wonderful journey just now. And the place for waiting buses are too creepy for me. And im already thinking of myself "macam mane aku nk balek dari keje nie kalo malam2, dah laa gelap, sunyi pulak tu" Ive been thinking of that for the whole day. ahhahahaha (: So yeah out from school at twelve plus and slack outside and then off to my interview at Singapore Zoo. Ay, thanks ay people for saying this phrases when im saying that im going to Zoo today. " kirim salam beruk pat zoo tu" " pegy jumpe AMENG pat zoo " and etc. Intention of me going there was to have my interview laa. And yess, i get the job and i love the job. Its kind of easy job, you see. being a photographer (: hees. I did all this was to make myself busy and i dont want to have any time for relationship yet. Im scared to be in love again. Its time for me to have my own life , my own stuffs , and stop crying over things. But somehow, i missed him badly. i miss my morning breakfast that he used to cook for me. IMY , ex boyfriend. Im so going to make a surprise for him before he off to that stupid irrtating idiot National Service. I hate it. It really really sucks. When im going to see you for the last time, ex boyf ? hmm. So, school as usual. Did my 2.4km just now and i failed ? hmph ! My stamina getting low, though. And just now he texted me asking where am i ? Its not that i dont want to talk, text , pick your calls or avoid you. It just that im getting tired the way you treat me. You come and go as you like. Hey, i have feelings okay. likewise, you said im heartless. So yeah, be it. I cant judge what people says about me cause you people just dont know me that well. So, shut your bloody mouth. And tell your girlfriend, not to worry. im not going to snatched you away. Cause i dont need a guy like you and i dont want to waste my time, my money with someone i know that someone's attached. i have better things to do. So please just back off from me okay. and yes i dont want history to repeat itself. Please Izraini, if you reading this : please get this in mind. Its not that i dont want to be friends with you. Im just scared that you might be that paranoid like before. Though, i dnt want to quarrel with twin for such a stupid reason. I love my twin, okay ? Understand me, Thanks. I want to be alone rather than i get hurt. That's what twin teach me (: Im not yet wants to be in a serious relationship right now. Labels: Its time to let u go
Monday, August 3, 2009 6:31 PM
Love begin with a smile, Grow with a kiss but ends with a teardrops ♥Err.. School was as per normal, ended early today. So,twin were so rude that i was smiling and waving at that stupid mat rep and twin pulled me over. Thanks eh, twin (: hahahhaha. Things are doing great. But honestly, sometimes i just cant lied to myself. okay, stop talking about him. Only god knows how much he meant to me. i kept rewhining this malay song "cinta ini membunuhku- dmasiv" it reminds of him yeah. (: If you're happy, im glad, baby. All i want to see is a smile in your face. IM SORRY IF IM SUCKS. So, looking forward on this wednesday, sunday and ohh yes FRIDAY (: ooooooooo, i cant wait. i known this particular person which is damn nice to me and funny at times. Thanks for being such a nice person horh and accompany me throughout my sadness that ive suffered. (: to anyone or whoever, im just friends with him okay and not more than that. Get that aytes. someone madly in love with bunga citra lestari ? (: To kak mimy: congrats to your pregnancy yeah, tc of yourself. ily, both (:
Sunday, August 2, 2009 5:55 PM
Excitement ♥  Just came back from cousin's house. and yes im pretty much excited, you see. At last mummy agreed with something that ive been wanting to do. So i just have to wait on wednesday then. So, things went out smoothly now and surprisingly we had a conversation just now without my expectation. Only twin knows how happpppppyyyy i am, you know. Kind of pissed off about something but i shouldnt be bothered anymore. i have people around whom loved me and i think that's enough for me (: Back to the story, actually we both know each other cause evry sunday we always met. Its just that i dont come down to that place that often. awwww.. im just super happyy, you see. *speechless. ahhaha. hehs. I really wanna watch "GI JOE and Hangover", anyone ? accompany ? (:
Saturday, August 1, 2009 2:42 PM
screwed up ♥ Life has to move on. and i dont have to sit down and cried all along. I shouldnt woke up this morning having my eyes swollen. I shoulnt be thinking of him all day long. I shouldnt waste my time. While he's there effing happy away. Im just wasting my time and i bet i really have to move on with life. Yes, i admit its so difficult for me to forget everything. But i promised myself i will. im so going to delete you off. and i swear im being the stupid girl in the world right now. I should have listen to bestfriends earlier. i even lost my bestfriends. i even lost my four years friends. i even lost my twin that i loved so much. god, please give me strength. please. i missed them and now i've realised that im bad at making decision. and i shouldnt fall for their words easily. That's my greatest mistake. I hope after this, there's no more tears that going to put on my face. I just had enough with all this. and i guess i have to live my life fullest from now on.  To someone i loved so much rather than i loved myself : im sorry i have to do this. its kind of irritating you see, when you just broke up with me and there you go with the old attitude you have. i dont care whoever shit you wants to be friends with. cause im no one in your life anymore. i delete everything that have things to do with you. So that i will just not kept remembering of you and making myself hurt. But hey, i apprieciate everything we had together for nearly three years and being such a wonderful person in my life. I bet those are just for awhile. You said you just cant seem to trust me ? ohh well, think that to yourself too. Even you made me lost my trust on you but end up am i trying hard to trust you back ?? Could you answer me that, love ? But did you ever try to trust me ? i bet NO. Instead, you scold me for no reason and just finding my fault. And you waited for me to say the _____ sentence right ? If you want, you could have just said it and you dont have to hurt me. But anyway, you get what you want now and all i can do is praying hard that you would tc of yourself in future and yes get a better one. I swear im crying when im writing this. But just remember how hate i am to you, how slut i can be , how hurt i am , ive always loved you. I promise to you, i will fuck off from your life. I wont be bothering or stressing you anymore. Changing my number soon for the benefits of you. You made me do this. its hurts me of seeing your facebook. and i guess i just stop everything. and its done and officially done. im not fit to be your girlfriend. im sorry, goodbye. Why is it so easy to fall in love with you but yet it is so hard to let you go ? Why is it so easy to walk away but yet it is so hard to forget about you ? Why is it so easy to knocked me down but yet it is so tough to get back up ? |
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