Saturday, November 28, 2009 3:33 PM

Cloud nine

♥Yesterday went out to grandma's house and rushed home due to im working at seven (:
Bought daddy a cake yesterday and make him a little surprise at 12pm on the dot while he busily sleeping away. Planning goes smoothly and yes daddy smiled and kissed me on my forehead (:
After the cutting cake and we're all off to bed.
Woke up at twelve plus and everyone's busy karoeke-ing. heh.
Receive a text from bestfriend. And planned to have an outing next week.
And that's mean , my payday's out. Already wrote at my wishlist and yes i have to buy them all later on with bestfriend. And im so eager to watch "Twilight- New moon" with sweetlove. Idk when are we gonna watch due to both of us busy with our own thingy. hmmm.
And boyfriend , can i have that roxy bag ,please ? into love with that bag already.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009 9:02 PM

pretenders

♥Ended class at four and meet the others at canteen.
And you were there.
Im sorry if im sucks to you. Im sorry if i given hopes to you but to me actually im not.
I dont take it everything seriously yeah. I treat you like others. Just FRIENDS and not more than that.
Infact, you said im playing with your feelings.
Seriously , i didnt meant to. From now on , all i know im loving this particular person and it always be even he hurts me alot. I believe there is no perfect love in this world. But , im learning how to make my relationship goes smoothly. Ily , baby. You know that.


Girlfriend , i dont like the way you are. It sucks , you see. You act like an angel in front of me but behind me you're like a fucking bastard person. im sorry if my words are too harsh. But you really disappoints me , babe. Sometimes , when thinking everything back. The things we've gone through together. The cries , happiness, laughter and everything we shared , i could cry , baby. I just felt as if i get betrayed again and again by someone that i trust and loved.
I hate the feelings when i trust that person so much and end up he/she betrayed me.
WTH.

Sunday, November 22, 2009 6:52 PM

Mummy is my bestfriend

Saturday, November 21, 2009 4:26 PM

♥Yesterday met bestfriend irah & halim. Accompany me to do some stuffs at tampines and meanwhile we had a great time finding job too (:
Yesterday bumped with alot of typical people including bestfriend ayie too. Heyy BFF , hang out soon yeaaa. Will set a date soon.
Working has been too tiring for me. Ended late yesterday due to we have to clear the whole store on that night. So 11 plus punched out.
bumped to faizal at tampines yesterday. Had a little chat with him & off home.
I had something that really bothering about him. But yeah no point of me settle things woth him cause end up he will push it back to me.
I dont understand you at all.

Will update soon , readers.
gtg. gonna get ready for working later in (:

Wednesday, November 18, 2009 5:10 PM

♥

Tuesday, November 17, 2009 12:23 AM

♥Just came back from working and i couldnt get myself sleep.
Meanwhile ,surfing the net and texting sex love. bored , you see.
Mum & dad off to Johor and i wanna tag along but tomorrow schooling.
And i have to wake up early in the morning yeaa.
Supposely ,meeting ayie & friends todayyyyy.
16 november and there's event at Zirca today.
im upset , i couldnt tag them along. hais ): I know im gg to miss the fun yeaaa.
Had a great lunch with classmate and all just now.
Ended school at 1 plus , i think. and off to YCK to meet sex love.
Headed to tampines to settle some issue & off to my crib. Watch movie with him & i swear i really missed the old times.
Nearly to seven , im off to work and as usual . meet the ESPIRIT CLAN after work but today without khairul (: boredness. hee

i dont know what are we in terms right now. You dont really treat me like how it used to. But i still see the love through your eyes , baby.
I miss when you sent me home. I miss when you whisper to me and say "ILY". I miss watching movies with you. I miss hanging out with you. I miss the sweet messaging from you. I miss staying late night with you. I miss when you called "baby". I miss the old you. I swear when im writing this , im crying.
Even we're in a good terms but something really not satisfied myself.
I just want the old you that im used to knew you.
And now , you're busy with your own stuffs and i have to bear with it cause i know im going miss you so much. & its going to be fucking alot.
I know people tryna make me move on. But you guys have to understand my situation. I kept drowning on his love & he kept coming back to me. We're both deeply fall in love with each other but we're trying to settle things in a nice way and not in a harsh way. Yes , i admit im being a narrow-minded person. But im trying to understand him and do my part as his girlfriend. But sometimes idk why you're just think of yourself and not learning to apprieciate people , love. That's the weakest part in your life , dear.
I just wanna lead my life with a great one this time & obviously enjoy my life to the fullest. Sex love , all i can say : I MISS THE OLD YOU THAT USED TO LOVED ME DEARLY.


im done here.
update soon , people. & glad you still keep on reading about my daily life yeaa. oh well ,people. Being a busybody wanting to know what im going or facing in my life right now. But yeaa , dont mind with it cause my blog is for all readers including you ,bitch (:
Goodnight, people.

Labels: im gong to do my part and i need yours tooo.

Sunday, November 15, 2009 7:56 PM

♥AWESOME WEEKEND

Saturday : It was a last minute plan , actually. Bestfriend irah called and asked me out to watch muvies. Im working at six pm ,though. I dont really like last minute plan but after heard what she had to say so yeaa i go with the flow , instead. Watch "Paranormal Activity" was sucks. Totally sucks. But the show quite scary until i coudnt sleep at night. Afterall , the show quite bored to me yeaa. Next movie , 2012 & TWILIGHT , Sex loove ?
Ended muvies at 5 , i think. And bumped to the usual clann. THE ESPRIT CLAN.
Well , basically i dont really that close to them but days by days , im getting closer to them. I LOVE YOU , FRIENDS !
So , slack awhile & off to work.


Sunday : Had my day off today. Thought of slacking at home or might be meeting bestfriend in the evening. But cousin called up & asked me a day out cause she ahving problem with her boyfriend. Told ya alot of time , let him go cause he's not worth it for you. But yeaa , i understand. You loved him alot. hmm.
But think of yourself , do he really loved you ?
So yeaa , met cousin at harboutfront and we're off to Vivo & that's mean i get to meet Sex loove ! Yea , i know im having a hard time with Sex loove. But i just loved him. Thats all.
So , met him during his break time and off to have our lunch.
Its been days i nver get to see him & laughed all along with him.
But too bad , he have to get off early due to his working hours.
I have to bear with his busy days now.
So , off home and bumped to dydy. Had a long chat until i didnt realise that ive reached Simei. hahaha (:
PS: Thanks Cousin for STEALING the lanyard for me. ( Good Girl Gone Bad huh ? )
might be accompany cousin interview next week. Good luck , alright. See you soon , cousin ! Pictures will be up soon. I need LG usb , someone ?


They think tthey are good enough but to me they are just sucha loser.
Look at yourself in the mirror before saying something about others.
I have this difficulty trusting someone now. SHIT~

Labels: I MISS YOU

Friday, November 13, 2009 5:01 PM

Thursday, November 12, 2009 3:52 PM

♥I love this song and the singer really reminds of him.
Basically , the song trying to tell that even though we had ups and down but all we want was to be HAPPY at all times.
Like what im facing right now. Im trying to be happier as i can be. ~ hopefully.

everytime i breathe , i take you in. Ive been drowning in your love for so long and it never change.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009 6:12 PM

It really breaks me down when seeing you with someone else

Sunday, November 8, 2009 8:45 PM

You never care , baby

♥



i just want the old you whom you used to loved me dearly , saifudin. idk why my love for you started to fade away bit by bit. Maybe i just dont have the attention from you ? or i lack from your love ? or maybe we're not meant to be together ? someone , please answer this question for me ?
Love , you never ever be there when i need you , seriously.
Where are you when i needed you the most ? You were out there with friends. enjoying yourself. Ive tried to avoid quarrelling with you but sometimes im hurt inside.
My biggest happiness in life was to be with the old saifudin ive known.
Like what people says , this is relationship. Sometimes people change. Sometimes people intend to leave & go. And sometimes people intend to played other's party feelings.
Baby , if only you know how much i loved & sacrifice for you.
Love , soemtimes i just felt letting you go even though its hard for me to do that and that's the hurting part i have to go through in life.
But whenever i thought it over and over again, i think its the best for us.
We dont have he trust for each other and what for we continue ?
Im afraid history might happen again.
You kept leaving me and come back to me as whatever you like without thinking of how i felt.
i dont know. things are just going too way sucks for me.

Saturday, November 7, 2009 6:56 PM

Sunday, November 1, 2009 2:24 PM

icry

♥Thanks dearest shima , twin , amirah , atiqah , farhan , abg faisal , Nazirul , saifudin , lil sis , zuhairah , faridah , cousin , natasha & lastly apit and whom ever wish me thru FB , thank you so much.
PS : I love you ,poeple alot !

But i dont feel good today. I felt like screaming , crying , throwing my anger and etc. i dont know why you have to do this to me again and again.
Why cant you just be like others whom loved his gf alot.
Why cant you be like that kind of person ?