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Thursday, May 28, 2009 8:41 PM
♥HI people. been busy lately with school and stuffs. june holidays coming and ex boyfriend flying off to london. im so going to keep myself busy on that month. thanks daddy for giving me this job but im damn lazy to work. argh ! Things changed so fast and i myself dont want to be in this state either. its fucking stressing me up. i felt running away but someone told me that we cannot run from problems instead we have to settle it. i dont want to hurt both of the people i loved. ive been too unfair these days and i know what i am doing right now isnt fair enough to saifudin and faizal. Ive been thinking about this matter for the past five days and sometimes i do cry about it. it just upsets me for whatever im facing right now. god, please give me strength to face everything that i am right now. kasi aku pentunjuk. okay, im done. toodles.
Sunday, May 24, 2009 9:25 AM
♥All this time i was wasting, Hoping you would come around Ive been giving chances every time And all you do is let me down And its taking me this long Baby, but i figured you out And you're thinking we'll be fine again, But not this time around. You dont have to call anymore I wont pick up the phone This is the last straw Dont wanna hurt anymore And you can say that you're sorry But i dont believe you baby Like i did before You're not sorry.. Looking so innocent I might believe you if i didnt know Could've loved you all my life If you hadnt left me waiting in the cold And you got your share of singers And im tired of being last to know And now you're asking me to listen Cause its worked each time before. But you dont have to call anymore I wont pick up the phone. This is the last straw Dont wanna hurt anymore And you cantell me that you're sorry But i dont believe you baby Like i did before You're not sorry..no, no, ohhh You're not sorry You had me falling for you honey And it never would've gone away, no You used to shine so bright But i watched all of it fade So you dont have to call anymore I wont pick up the phone This is the last straw Dont wanna hurt anymore And you can tell me that you're sorry But i dont believe you baby Like i did before You're not sorry. This song when the first time i heard, it reminds me of mohammad saifudin. This song for you, love. Listen to the song and sing with the lyrics. The song is quite meaningful for me and saifudin. hais.
Saturday, May 23, 2009 8:52 PM
♥  Just recovered from fever but still coughing getting worse. Followed mummy and daddy to bukit timah. Visit grandma and told mummy im meeting a friend later. took cab and thanks daddy for being such a wonderful dad. (: So we had our lunch at BP then headed to home. i had a wonderful day just now. So yeah tomorrow had plans again. going to chewnie house to take some stuffs and dot dot dot. im moving on with friends around me. Thanks friends for being there and chewnie, thanks for your hugged on the last friday ! We did cried on the same place, time bt different date hor ? hehs. i guess, she's my real twin. cause what we did, what we have is always coincidence the same. (: Tirna, hang out soon yeah ! beep me anything yeah. Yesterday, i was totally knocked up. Things are going too fast. Ex boyf came to my voideck without my notice at first. Then i called him cause i received one missed call from him. And i was shocked that he said he was on the way to my voideck in five minutes time. i have no choice to go down so yeah we did talk some stuffs yesterday. i swear, i really wana burst out when i hugged you, ex boyf. But i do stay strong as ive promised myself not to cry over you anymore. i know you will forget about me soon cause you're off leaving on this 7 june-20 june. you did said to me what i want when you're off to london. You know what i want ? just came back to singapore on the 20 june with safe. Thats all (: But our conversations did stopped when daddy suddenly appeared. Yeah, im sorry i really have to let you go this time. Not because of faizal or what. Its because what you've done to me all these while. I dont wana be a fool again and again. You should know what's your mistakes that makes me leaving you this time. And to IZRAINI, please la dont disturb my life again and again la. i really had enough of you. Please dont make me spread around saying bad things about you okay ? i dont want that to happened cause i know it will make you embarrassed. So, please be a man okay ! i dont want you to be in my life nor in my friend list. Cause you're not fit to be in ! like i said to you : I HATE YOU ! get that in mind, dude. okay, im done here. toodles. update soon !
Thursday, May 21, 2009 10:30 PM
♥yeah, ive been tagged and asked to do some survey stuffs. So read it (: and knows what;s in me . hehs. 1) Besides lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss ? - Forehead ( someone did that to me and im blushed ). hehs. 2) How do you feel when you wake up in this morning ? - totally fresh ! 3) Who was the last person you took photo with ? - Nur zalieqa 4) Would you considered yourself to be spoiled ? - YES, because of something stupid happen to me. ( cant really elaborate ) *personal 5) Would you ever donate blood ? - No, cause im scared of needles. 6) Have you ever have a bestfriend who was an opposite sex with you ? - Duh ! 7) Do you want someone to be dead ? - of course no lah. silly question. 8) What does the last msg you received ? - "eeffy, im home and ill call you tonight" hugs* 9) What are you thinking right now ? - moving on with my life and dont turn back in the past (: 10) Do you wish someone with you right now ? - ohh yes, definitely. 11) What time you went to bed last night ? - 2 plus, i guess. 12) Where did you buy the T shirt you wearing now ? - urms, i have no idea. momma bought it a nightdress for me. 13) Is someone in your mind ? - ohh yes, most definitely. 14) Who is the last person text you ? - Faizal (: okay im done, actually there's still more to be answered but im just too tired hor (: Goodnights, readers !
9:24 PM
♥HI just get to know something shocking just now. it really shocks me and i couldnt believe myself at first but i try to figure things out and yes everything i heard its true, it sads me and i cried. But after, chewnie and tirna consoled me and stuff, i felt relieved. Yeah, its true enough its hard for me to forget everything but after knowing what he had did behind me all these while, its totally embarassed of me having a boyfriend like him. Yeah, you should know this : it would turned back to you someday when you really find someone that you truly loved. believe me (: This time i wont forgive you nor turning you back cause what you did this time its way too much. and yes im sorry to say this i began to hate you. wasted my two years with you. To friends especially to tirna sari : yeah, all these while ive been way stupid to fall for his words. i should have listened to you guys at first. and to tirna, i guess i made a mistake by quarrelling with you just because of this guy. Like what you said, we've been friends for about four years and that guy i just known for two years but i guess my love stories with him are just way damn bullshits. all i want to say to you, tirna. im sorry for everything (: i miss the old days with you. How i wish i could turn everything back. So im doing great for the past few days. school was as normal. and thanks mr mat rep for waiting for me just now and be there for me when i need someone to talk to. it takes time yeah. i dont want to rush. and im glad being this way with you. i dont want to be trapped again like what my ex boyf did to me. But i know and im sure although you do have a bad backgrounds last time, i know you do have this pure heart to loved me. i dont care what people said about you. cause you ever said to me that, "dont judge a book by its cover, know my inside out not by looking at my outside in". (: Thanks for your careness and advices that you never failed to say it. hees. yeahhh i had a great time with you just now. you never failed to make me smiled. hang out soon yeah (: cant wait on the nineteen june. and chewnie, she's doing damn great with IRWAN. im happy for you but hey dont take things rush okayy ? update soon yeah (:
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 3:34 PM
♥There must be something that makes you changed in a sudden. You're not the same person that ive known for the past two years. i just cant do this anymore. Now, ive realised people will never changed and starting from now onwards, i will learn not to trust and believe people's words that easily. Trust me, i dont want to be in this state either. But this time you just way too much. You made me believe that im not worth it for you anymore. All these time, i was wasting my hope that you would changed. Ive been giving out chances everytime, and all you can do is let me down. And its taking me this long, baby but i figured out. And you think we'll be fine again ? but not this time around. im sorry. You dont have to call anymore, i wont pick up the phone. i dont wana hurt anymore. You can say that you're sorry, but i dont believe you, baby Like i did before. hais. You just played with my love all these while. BOTTOM LINE : im super dissapointed with you*
Saturday, May 16, 2009 11:57 AM
♥  HELLO PEOPLE been busy with school stuffs. im just getting fed up of the new schedule i have now. its just totally sucks. Almost everyday class ends at 5pm and the next morning i have to wake up early in the morning. stupid routine i have now. So yesterday, had great time with family. "happy belated birthday, mummy" managed to get something for her and she apprieciates it. Thanks for all the years you have taught me. though when i was a small kid i cant feel the love from you. but stilll, im lucky to have a mother like you. who understands me more than anyone else (: ily, mummy ! READ: i hope after this, you just stop calling me and contacting me okay ? i dont want to say who are you but i bet you know whom im referring to. i already have enough of your nonsense yeah. With you inside my life, you are just making my life difficult. And guess what ? because of you, i even quarrelled with din and my own bestfriend. wth ! Seriously, you can just fuck off from my life ! regret knowing you at the first place. sillysillyme. Please okay stop making up stories about me to your friends yeah. i hate it ! and now you have the heart to say that if we could be friends as per normal. hahahhaha. i can laugh my ass out when you said that. sorry okay, im the type kalo orang dah buat taik dgn aku, aku takkan jilat balek. (: im just sick and tired. stories there and here. so stop all this okay before i lost my patience yeah. i damn hating you after all what you've done to me. arghhh! school was great as usual when girlfriends around me. yeah we have fun and laughters especially when there is a girl who used a sample hair. hahhaha. i swear i can really laugh my ass out when i see her ! hahaha. but chewnie said "dee, dier pon ader prasaan jugak" hahhaa. but chewnie its the one who showed her to me first ! hahahha. yeah, i will stop laughing about her. cause if i put myself on her shoes, i will be terrible upset too, i guess (: ohh yes chewnie LOOOOVVVVEEEESSSS to peep on my messages. hahahha. The story goes like this : whenever she beside me, if my handphone rings, i was busily replying to it while chewnie busily peeping on what i message with. hahahaha. its kind of cute hehs. (: ohh yeah, to chewnie, I KNOW AND TOTALLY KNEW WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO WRITE ABOUT ME ! HAHAHAHAH. its great to have this bunch of friends i have now. (: okay, im done here. got to get ready. going to boyf's house cause he's sick. poor him bt damn stubborn, still going to school with the situation he is now. haiya. i miss him (:
Sunday, May 10, 2009 2:15 PM
♥HI. just wana wish HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY to all mums on this earth. To my dearest mum, LIZAWATEE.. the inspiration of my life. The only reason i do what i do and i live what i live, the true and pure existence of love, Thanks for knowing my inside out and outside in. I adore you for teaching me a real value of woman. Thanks mummy for everythings. you're the best mum i ever had! ily, mummy (:
Saturday, May 9, 2009 9:21 PM
♥ITS ALL TOTALLY SUCKS
Wednesday, May 6, 2009 7:32 PM
♥HI. been busy lately with some stuffs. and yes exam is around the corner (: Leading a good life right now when my loved ones is around me. yeah, im not going to be that active in blogging yeah, readers ! i will update when im totally free. THANKS friends for the advise and stuffs. apprieciate it alot yeah. congrats to RATU and TIRNA for getting into the second round for the anugerah thingy (: going to support you guys on this saturday. had fun in school just now with girlfriends. and yes we laugh our ass out at the canteen just now bcos of this one chinese girl kind of wearing a sample hair and we do talk craps about it. Im so going to changed the way i am right now. im free from IZRAINI and im so going to stick with boyf always. yeah, i dont want to elaborate here about him cause i dont want to make him embarassed. So yeah, stop all my stupid nonsense and lead this good life of mine. hees. PS: if you dont disturb my relationship and so am i not giving you any problems okay ? thanks (:
Sunday, May 3, 2009 8:06 PM
♥im speechless right now. i dont know what to do. and i dont want to hurt you. all these while, ive been treating you as a friend and not more than that. my day for today are totally sucks ! i even cried in public and yes this group of malay are looking at me. mind your own business la, chibai ! met the love one, and it really upsets me. i did all this because of you. just opened your eyes and see how much ily and how i've shown it to you. like what i did today. i dont wana elaborate more here. cause it just teared me down. And shima, thanks for comforting me just now with the message that you gave me. apprieciate it alot. and to my dear ayid, you're just lucky enough to have shima as your gf (: and chewnie, thanks for calling me when i need someone to talk to. im sorry for what happened between us. i dont wish to hurt you,_______ i cant loved you like how i love my ex boyf. again, my apology. YES, MY ATTITUDE SUCKS!
Saturday, May 2, 2009 6:05 PM
♥went to eastpoint just now. accompany friend to the anugerah thingy. and wth the place was so packed ! argh ! then had our lunch and stuff. (: hehs. and im going out later. and yes im so going to have fun later. Happy birthday, AMIN ! yeahs things went out normal and i have to changed the way i am right now. Bought new shoes already and thanks to gfs for accompanying me that time (: PLEASE EVERYONE, stop asking me about "him" I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM ANYMORE. im just sick and tired of reminding him and in the end i get myself hurt by remembering for what he had done to me. argh ! Mummy, im sorry i cant bring him back into my life anymore as i know we dont meant to be together and we have our own life right now. i cant lied to myself. YES, i do love and care about him but i have no choice. ive promised to myself that im going to be strong in whatever im facing now and later. Advices from chewnie: Don't leave the one that you loved just cause you wanna go with the one you like. Cause when karma hits you, you will end up being a lonely soul with a heart broke that you won't forget in your future. To____, girl, you better back off la okay. stop disturbing him okay. he said to me you're just becoming an irritating for him. since he did said to you that night, then get that in mind and understand everywords that he said aytes. please la and yes stop talking about my friends. if you think you cant stand with her then come and talk to us okay. if you mess with my friends and so do you messing with me yeah. (:
Friday, May 1, 2009 9:43 PM
♥its going to be a second post for today. Like what i said, things are turning upside down. and this is not what ive want. to my _______ i didnt realised that all these while. im sorry okay. i didnt meant to hurt your feelings, though. Even i, myself couldnt believed that in silence, we do have conflicts. We have been too way happy together. laughing together, joking together, crying together and even sharing something that people shouldnt know. and now things are turning the other way round. i guess its my fault. maybe i just dont know you that well. We've known 3 months plus, i guess. Yeah, we have a long journey together. I will take that opportunity to know you that well. again, im sorry my dear friend if i had ever hurt you. yeah, settle things up with _______ already. i wont repeat the same mistakes again. PS: ive lost the one i loved the most, but should i lost the bestest friend i had again in my life?
1:06 PM
♥Ive always love you im just speechless for evrything i faced up right now. im just confused. im not running away. im still here. i just need to be alone for awhile. its not easy for me to opened up my heart for other guys. i know you've been waiting for me to accept you but im totally sure i cant. i just cant be in a relationship right now. it needs time for me to heal everything up that ive suffered. and yes ive been not contacting with this bunch of stupid guys. cause they just waste my fucking time (: again, im not being a slut to you guys. cause you guys just not worth it for me. you're just fooling around and save your damn fcuking sweet talks to me. and FYI, im even fooling around with you guys. i dont even shed a tears if you're gone from my life cause you're a jerk ! thank god, ive back off from this stupid guys. "you're just wasting my time". Thanks for shedding tears for me. i dont expect things to be this way. everything turning upside down. I dont want to be in a relationship. Do you guys understand ? please lah understand me. ALL YOU GUYS WANTS, IS FOR ME TO UNDERSTAND YOUR FEELINGS. BUT DO YOU GUYS EVER THINK OF MINE ? DAMN ! all you guys want is for me to accept you guys in a rush ! i have my own life and decision too. its not damn easy for me ! i thought you're different from others that ive known but you're just the same. HEARTLESS people. think of yourself not for others. i dreamt about him and its so hilarious ! when i woke up, ive cried and thanks mummy for being there and consoled me. again, thanks mummy. how i wish i never met you. it seems so hard for me forgetting you. yeah, like what izyan said : for what i should i care for him if he doesnt even care about you. hais ): im just wasting my hope on him. ps: i dont wish to talk to anyone nor "you". im switching my handphone this few days. im totally pissed with everything that had happened ! |
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