Saturday, January 30, 2010 12:52 PM

Thursday, January 28, 2010 10:03 AM

♥Im bored and im in school right now (:
Yesterday didnt attend afternoon lesson due to meeting adorable ♥ at 1pm.
So , slacked awhile and something happens that really upsets me.
But still , adorable ♥ made my day by buying me chocolate that im craving for (:
Thank you , Muhd Noah.
Off from yishun around 1.30 and off to Lavendar.
I had a great time with adorable ♥ cause we laughed about littlest things non- stop.
After done with the passport thingy , we slacked and off home.
Adorable ♥ wanting to sent me home but i insist (:
Reached safely home at six plus.
Gy topup uppppp laaaa , bodoh ! (: hahahaha.
Didnt attend to afternoon lesson later on due to wanting to settle kurjen's problems.
& might be meeting adorable ♥ after that.

I was amazed by your three missed calls from you at 12am plus.
Cause you never called me during that hour just to talk on the phone with me.
hais. Why now you try to prove to me that im always there in your mind ?
Why when im with you, you doesnt do that? hais.
How i wish you knew , ex boyfriend. ):


Let me spend the day with you before you're away cause
i know im going to miss you , adorable ♥

Tuesday, January 26, 2010 6:23 PM

Monday, January 25, 2010 6:11 PM

♥
didnt have the chance to talk or even see that adorable ♥ in school.
And yes adorable ♥ scolded me for something cause i do things that he dont like ): hmph.
but i know for a meanwhile only. heh (:
and yes he owns me TWO chocolate.


Saw something and i was like smiling to myself. Im glad enough that i made a good one this time.
And what i meant was leaving him forever. Cause he wouldnt change at all.
So people out there , trust me i wont be turning back this time.
But im proud of myself cause for what ive seen , i didnt feel upset , pissed or angry instead im happy.





and i want you to know that im glad that you've been always there for me , adorable ♥
and you'll get your strawberry kiss sooooonnn , ♥

Sunday, January 24, 2010 10:14 AM

Saturday, January 23, 2010 3:26 PM

Wednesday, January 20, 2010 6:18 PM

♥School was super great when ive started to talk to him (:
Didnt attend to ONG lesson instead kurzen & i slacked outside with adam and khalis.
So yeah , it really awesome when having  this bunch of friends around me.
Something happened just now in school.
We did sit & talk to this friend of mine. I dont mean to be so harsh on her.
Its like she's totally freaking jerk. That's all i could describe on her.
So , things settled nicely & i did talk to kurzen about something and im glad nothing serious happened.
Heyy , i loved my babygirls more than anything (:

Tuesday, January 19, 2010 6:48 PM

Monday, January 18, 2010 6:33 PM

Sunday, January 17, 2010 9:51 AM

♥Its been three years im with him.
Its been a wonderful love stories i had with him.
but i guess im done here.
I dont want to hurt myself again & again .
Yes ,  i really do loved him & leaving him was the hardest thing i wanna do.
But where were you when i needed you the most ?
You never change and i dont think i should continue it.
Yes , im being patience all along.
The lies that you told me , the cheats that you done to me , the tears that you made me.
Ive been patience enough , love.
But you taking all my kindness as a advantage.
People was right . I shouldnt have been too nice with you .
Yes , i made mistake ever before. But did i made an attempt to change for the good of us ?
I bet , i did.
But WHY CANT YOU JUST SEE IN IT ?
I dont know what else i have to do . I bet this decision i made , its the right thing for me.
I dont blame anyone else. I bet its my fault.
Being too nice to people & forgive and forget that easily.
And now , i just have to be MEAN to people.


AND LASTLY , I MISS COUSIN.
When will i get to meet you , huh ?!


Im done here , people .
Will update a proper post when i already settle things down.
(:

Saturday, January 16, 2010 12:38 PM

♥Really felt bad yesterday . Thanks iqah for the advices & chill me down . And thanks twin .
I dont know who i have to turn to if not them. I just loved my babygirls. You're the bestest person ive known.
Im not being a narrow-minded or jump into conclusion . i dont want to elaborate here .
Let him himself figure it out why am i mad ,upset , pissed .
Sometimes , i just felt like backing off cause im tired to play your games .

Friday, January 15, 2010 8:43 PM

♥I felt bad , upset , angry , pissed right now. I dont know what else i wanna do .
I need bestfriend ayie to talk to. i miss bestfriend ayie & irah .
What else you wants from me ?
What you want , i'll try me best to have it. But this i get from you in return .
Im tired of playing with your stupid games.
You'll never change the way you are & im really sick of it.
Its so annoying of you to have her on your MSN list back and you have the cheek to asked me to have an outing with her ? How would i felt , saifudin ? then after that what , din ?
Have the cheek to have her number ? what more else you want in your life from me ?!
Im sorry , if you think im being an ego. YOUR WRONG.
You're the one whom being an ego. You never think of what people's feeling.
All you think of yourself.
Thats you , mohammad saifudin mohamed.

Thursday, January 14, 2010 8:40 PM

♥SCHOOL WAS TOTALLY SUCKS.
I FELT SO ANNOYING WHEN PEOPLE SCOLDED ME

Wednesday, January 13, 2010 10:15 PM

♥♥ ,
Ever since I started to gave up myself with someone from the past, in a sudden a boy whom i hate the most was with me, helping me in an indirect way in getting myself up again from that stupid idiot heartache. In fact I'm coping well enough with him right now ever since ive met him. I am feeling grateful whenever he's there with me all the times.He is my one and only one , hands down , no question asked. No , like seriously , he'sthe one i could and actually need to envision my future ahead. Everyday i fall more and more for him and it feels extremely amazing. He's the person i want to spend forever with . The person i want to go on road trips with , kiss under the covers , make fun of people with , whisper on to his ears and say " I LOVE YOU" , go on adventures with , shop at random places with and show everyone that we're meant to be with. We have been through so much. Ive cried alot but ive also smiled alot. Ive been sad , but ive been happier more than that. My heart has been bruised , crushed and then fixed all by him. Which still surprises me to this date , we still keep holding on.
He & I havent been too perfect , but our happy moments were beyong perfect. All i need in life to be happy , is him. He knows what to say to keep me smiling and laughing all the time no matter what kind of mood im in .Honestly , ive never felt this way about anyone before . No one can compare to him or the way he makes me feel . This boy is nothing short of amazing and although perfection doesnt exist in solely one object , he's by far the closest thing there is to this called "perfection" in my eyes. He is the type of guy i felt like i  can tell anything to and genuinely give my trust to , which is a huge step for me since its rare someone ever gains my trust . But all i know , he's worth it . He treats me like no onther has before . He cherishes me , wants me , needs me , holds me , kisses me and everything the way no one else has before. I love the way he looks at me . He gives me the best feelings ever. Feelings that i cant describe . He's the only one who actually cares & also the last i think of before i go to sleep. Im glad i knew him for the beginning and now he's all mine now. I couldnt be more grateful for the 13 January 2007. That;s the day he came into my life and changed everything in me. My heart will always beat in the same rhytm as yours and it will always belongs to you . He's my second half , the who completes me .
Happy three years anniversary , ♥
and Happy 20th birthday .

Thursday, January 7, 2010 8:45 PM

♥school was fine as per normal. But something happened in school just now.
Was walking down to class & someone shouted "butoh uh effy , kau tinggal kan aku ! "
Obviously , its him who shouted it . i dont care what you wanna say or whatever shit.
Everything happens for a reason and i'll always kept saying that to you (:
I dont want to go school nymore. School sucks , anyway.
I need to dye my hair back and i dont want to. ARGH !
stupid rules & stupid school.





cheating on your loved ones wasnt the right thang  to do cause end up karma comes back to you & you cant simply blame he/she.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010 10:02 AM

♥First day to school was awesome great with geeks. Surprised the birthday girl with a cake . & things went out smoothly (:
Chewwwniie didnt bring her UNO thangy & i bet class was too boring for us without that all time favourite game of us -,-
Ended school at three and off to meet ♥ .
Planning was to have our lunch at Pastamania. But i have my mood swings in a sudden.
Maybe im just too way tired and i didnt get enough sleep. That's why.
Instead , off to Northpoint to search for Chewwwniie's present.
Thought of buying her a wallet. But the choice i wanna buy wasnt there. hmph.
So , bought her a bracelet with a her name on it (:

People , ive deleted some of my contact list except of family , geeks & ♥ .
So , if you're texting me , do leave a name yeah .
Im doing this cause i love my boyfriend alot.
THANK-YOU VERY THE MUCH..


im happy with what i have. I know we do have something on before. And i know you managed to get into my life. But i believe you're not the one.
I know ive been harsh to guys including you.
I know we're in the same school & its hard for you. But let me tell you this , its not worth for you to wait for me or whatever shit cause  i swear to myself i wont be coming back for you cause ive been too much in love with my boyfriend and i bet everybody knows that .
im sorry if im being rude or heartless. Im doing that cause im avoiding you whenever i see you around. And i promise i wont be giving you guys hope anymore cause i believe end up it will  hurt both of us and i dont want that to happen.
I apprieciate of what i have now in life. Whether its happiness or sadness , i thank to god.
Its called life , though.
I try to ease my anger and not being a narrow-minded person.
Something really makes me uneasy but yeah , im following what my bestfriend mummy said.
" Let everything heal itself though it hurts alot cause no point of arguing if that person arent understands you. "
That's what im doing right now.
♥ , i hope you change someday. i know its been quite long im with you and yet im still here tolerating all your nonsense. Im just hoping you realised it someday.

PS : bestfriend , im sorry for saying this . i hate you.

Saturday, January 2, 2010 2:35 PM

Friday, January 1, 2010 12:48 PM

♥Goodbye 2009. A lot of memories on it .
And here's 2010 and i hope ive achieved what i want for my own.
Without fail , ive always celebrate it with ♥ but this year nahh.
Planning meeting ayie & gf due to they celebrating at Sentosa. But bestfriend irah called.
And yeah , im being a good friend. Prefer being with bestfriend when she needs someone to rely on rather than going party tha wasting my time & money.
Instead , celebrating with bestfriend irah at home. Its a great thang to do.
We had alot of laughters , , movie marathon , sharing something that onnly between both of us , and etc at 2am plus.
And thanks mummy for buying prata for us due to we darn hungry (:
But afterall i had a great coutdown this year with bestfriend. Thanks bestfriend for cheering me up.



Its hard to find someone that really accept the way you are
People who can rely on , People who you could care & cherish .
Out of my teenage life , i have met someone that i really treasuree.
But , things are just not what my expectations.

When everything just feels right when you're in the person's embrace. Its after i had a bad day and that person is the first person i want to talk to and when i have a good news or are excited about something , that person is the first thing i want to tell.
Its waking up and having that someone as the very first thought in the morning.
And when i to go bed at night , your the last thing on my mind. And when both of us are together , the time goes by too fast and i never want to go.
Love is when no one else can hurt more , but no one can , make me happier at the same time.