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Wednesday, July 8, 2009 5:48 PM
♥ SCHOOL LIFEIt was awesome when seeing bunch of lovable friends around me. had fun with them every single days. When to twinnie's crib just now as our class starts at one due to no lesson for PE. yeah, its obviously we are super excited when having PE but end up dissapoinment ay. Back to school around one plus and accompany twinnie met irwan and off to school. Checked my GPA and shit! ive only get 1.4. and hell yes, i couldnt get to go in Higher Nitec if my GPA remains that way. But hey, did my practical well just now. and end class at 3.30.LOVE LIFEAt first, it went out beautifully and i felt like im the most luckiest girl in the world. But now it starts back to where it was. Honestly, i dont ever felt regret of what im facing right now. Maybe he doesnt know how i felt nowdays. Yeah, i know this what called relationship. Every relationship we had, there is abit of conflicts between us. But i do believe, if we kept maintain on what we are in the first place, i bet there is no conflicts at all. Im just confused and pissed of what people said and stuff to me. Its been such a long time im with him. Since we're in secondary life and till now we are holding it strong. But honestly, sometimes im just tired of going through the same thing again and again. I just need abit of your attention, really. You're not the person ive known. On that moment, you're just being so sweet to me. But i dont know if that was mother fucker sweet talk from you. But trust me, i dont believe if that was really you. Its really unfair for me for everything that i did. What i did, always its not okay for you but when you did something, everything seems to be okay. You always kept saying im the one, im the one who started everything first. But deep in my heart, i just want to clear out to you what's in my heart all these while. But turned out im wrong. You kept saying the same word again. I guess i shouldnt say any words anymore to you. i just kept by myself from now onwards.im just upset of what im going through right now, Even im having trauma sometimes, of what you did last time. im scared it will happen again and again. Likewise, it will never change, it will always remains how it used to be. Love, please change the way im thinking right now. You ever said that you're going to be the best person for me this time but it only lasts for a few days and not forever. Like now, changes made again by you.Baby, how i wish you knew what i felt right now. i dont want to be hurt anymore. but if yes, please do it quickly cause im cant hold it anymore. im just too tired.FRIENDSi missed the moments we had together. i had dreamt that you guys appeared in front of me and singing this sweetest song to me at the voideck. It just amazed me in a sudden i dreamt about you guys. I swear i really missed the moments we spent. We cried, laugh, share secrets and even the most dissapoinment share boyfriend. Its the most dissapoinment i had ! but still, i still loved her. We've been through ups and downs together for the past four years. I dont know why sometimes i just felt hating them but in a same time i would feel i missed them. When remembering the days we had, i would just feel sad and i felt like crying. i just want my friends back. But i know i couldnt. FUCK! how i wish nothing happens to us. and nothing happens that makes us separated like now. Guess now, bestfriends turns out to be enemies. Girl, ive received your message through facebook. honestly, i felt upset about it. the reason i add you cause im just missed talking to you guys. but hey, i dont give a damn if you guys hate me. yes, no one is perfect either and i dont live to please people out there. i am being a human do have feelings and im being what i am and not pretending. get that. cause why ? i just hate being pretenders. i just do what i felt. i just want you guys to know im sorry for everything and i will keep those memorable things we had in mind. May you guys success in everything you do.Yeah friends in ITE now, are great. super great ! but sometimes i just missed my bestfriends. ):Girlfriends are being so kind to me and never failed to make me laugh. They reminds me of my bestfriends. i just loved my gfs alot. Maybe i just let time to pass by. i believe someday, i would just forget everything and i would just move on with people around me.IM DONE.
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EFY ♥
1st November is my all time favourite day, big thanks to mum
Ive owned a beautiful/gorgeous bestfriend. Bestfriend Amira && Irahh
My all time favourite Soldier boy ♥
MY SAY ♥
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