Efy Gisella
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 1:08 PM
Insecurable


daddy ,
You're just a person with no feelings at all. i dont like the way you treat grandma and my dearest uncles. I know ive been a spoil brat to you but please dont compared me with my siblings .
Do you ever thought what i want in life ?
Do you ever thought of people's feelings ?
Talked till late night with dearest grandma & when i heard everything that grandma complained to me , i felt like slapping my maid & daddy . FUCK.
I dont expect they treat grandma and uncle till like that.
Seriously ,i hate you daddy for doing those shits to them.
Cried for hours yesterday and thanks grandma for calming me down.
Grandma ,
I know you've hurt all these while. I know you've been keeping all these to yourself. I promise you , grandma. No matter what happens in future later on , ill be by your side .
I wont be a spoil brat anymore to you. Ilysm , grandma.




Dear Diary,




I'm not who you think I am.


Not smart,
Not beautiful,
Not funny,
Not talkative,
I don't tell good stories,
I complain too much,
I get whiny,
I'm annoying,
I'm noisy, (not in a good way)
I'm ugly,
I'm insensitive to other ppl's feelings,
I cry too much,
I get pmssy all the time,
I'm not hot enough,
I'm too skinny,
I'm not perfect,
I curse too much,
I'm rude,
I'm not rich,
I spend unnecessarily,
I boss around,
I have lots of negative 'energy',
I lie,
I don't believe you.
I'm just telling the truth.

How I feel about myself.








i need someone to talk to that really understands my outside and inside.
im badly upset right now.

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