Efy Gisella
Thursday, December 3, 2009 9:50 PM
HEARTLESS




i never thought that you change just like that. I dont know if im being too naive for just listening to him or think that he's always right. I thought after what ive done for him , it really make him realised his mistakes and see how much i loved him. But its pointless. Nothing change and the worst thing , he just became a heartless person to me.
He never ever see in me but yet he see in me through my outside. Im tired of being stucked in this situation again and again.  Cause you wouldnt even bothered about it, babe
You never take it seriously & you always push everything back to me without thinking why am i angry , sad or dissapointed. Everything that i do and made , there's a reason behind it and its not what i want.
Why cant you just loved , cared & understands me like the way other guys treat his girlfriend. Sometimes , im jealous of it. Why cant my boyfriend  be like that.
Im not trying to say he's not perfect or whatever shit it is. But , i dont like the way he is right now.
I dont get your full attention from you nowdays.
Can you just explain to me where am i standing in your life ?
Can you just explain to me why are we still holding this relationship ?
Babe , i need those answers to ensure my feelings on it.
Seriously , nearly three years im with you , im darn tired.
Ive been drowning in your love for sucha long time.
Likewise , im not breaking up with you unless there's a third party in our relationship.
I'll keep my words that ive said to you ,
i wont let you go this time. I'll be the bestest gf for you. But you yourself never apprieciates of what ive done. Im still holding it , babe though its really hurt me bad enough. Please change the way you are cause i dont want to be in love with someone else except you , babe. And i dont want to end everything up just like that.


god , give me strength in whatever im facing right now.
I know im not that strong to bare the pain that i suffered  but please dont make me lost hope and just let the one that i loved leave just like that. I know i still need him to support me and to be by my side. God , please make him realised of how much nur elfidiana bte azman loves mohammad saifudin mohamed.









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